Relationships? Oh lordy me…

This topic isn’t for the faint hearted. This takes an honest look at ourselves and acknowledges what may be going on. We will be covering quite a few topics as there are plenty of ways to screw things up. I know because I think I have done personally quite a few. What I have noticed though is that the universe sends me a connection/partner for a reason, it is to definitely evolve I have worked out, but do you think I could see that back then or know that or even know what to do. 

Instead, having been presented with a potential partner initially they would appear to have worked out and sorted the annoying things from previous partners that would cause all sorts of strife and also they would bring a heap of things I adored. So, why then did the annoying things show up again, but not only show up but intensify so dramatically it is fight or flight adrenaline rush reflex at the ready and on a consistent basis. 

Yes, the same things…yet I was sure they didn’t have those traits initially as I had this list right of everything I adore in a partner and everything I didn’t like. Did universe get my order screwed up? Well, if so, universe got mine screwed up so many times that clearly a few parts may have been whited out or could it be that I haven’t learnt the lesson yet? 

Whhhaaaatttt? Now normally that comment I would discard and dispel and say nope I just chose wrong again, and again and again.

Since all my relationships screwed up I thought I might as well get to and analyse exactly what I was doing or not doing in order for me to know what the lesson is and then for me then to have an incredible, nurturing, loving and fulfilling communion with another. That’s the outcome however there is a process that I know I have not mastered.

You see, recognising your own faults in relationships is truly difficult. It’s hard to see where you’re the one doing something wrong. It is so much simpler to blame your partner and walk away guilt-free than it is to say you’re the screwed up one who stuffed up a great thing. 

Also, relationships are a lot of work, and if you’re insecure and fall into old patterns easily and truly struggle to love yourself (Cliché, let me explain later on) you may not be the best to be a good significant other at the moment. 

Doesn’t sound like you does it? Are you sure? I put together some signs that said to me that I was actually the problem in my relationships. You know it takes two to tango however this is really about what I needed to learn within a space that I have control of. I had to take the blame game blinkers off, lower my barriers and truly see. 

Proceed with caution, you may not like what you read/hear but know that if you get this life lesson everything will fall into place. 

What have you got to lose?

Also, really important to know that the only person you can level up is you not someone else.